The Sadness

I am the happiest sad man you will ever meet.

I am happy and optimistic about almost everything

But in my heart is a seriousness

A sadness

A sharp-bladed truth

But the sadness is not something I do not want

It binds me to a purpose

It shows me a path of symmetrically methodical exuberance

Each step is meticulously paved and positioned

Very few can or want to follow it

Because it is not a follower's path

It opens up to be formed and led by the force of that sadness

The inner sadness that brings order and sensibility

It does not bring tears or pain or anguish

It brings stability and pragmatism to a world run amok in the fantastic

It is the sadness that allowed there to be a foundation to fantasy

It is true fantasy, and therefore is not fantasy

It is truth

And it is mine.

A burden, but a blessing

As it weighs down it teaches

As I struggle I am strengthened

I embrace the sadness